My Broken Heart and I

by Carly Trumble
(Nova Scotia Canada)

I still remember the day he did this to me, the day he changed me...I'm still not sure if it was for the best or the worst, and when I find that out I think it will be another day to remember.

I've loved him for about half the school year and he has known all along. The first time I asked him out he told me to go back on MSN at 7:30 the next morning so he could think about it. Of course, I understood that he needed to do that, but I didn't expect him to turn me down so harshly.

As I woke up the next morning, full of excitement, I turned on the computer and quickly signed on as if this was the moment that would change my life, and I thought it would! I saw him online, so I quickly asked him what his answer was, but his response was read my personal message, then he signed off.

My eyes quickly filled up with tears as I saw the message to say "I love you —— (someone else's name)." He was dating someone else, but it wouldn't be fair to say her name. All I can say is she's pretty, and a whole lot better than I'll ever be! But the number one thing she has that I don't is him. That was the first time he broke my heart.

After a while they broke up but he told me once he got over her, he'd give me a chance! I asked him how long it should take him, but his reply was one month, which shocked me but I still took it. I didn't want to miss a day, so I made a countdown for 31 days. Each day crossing out a new and lower number, I just couldn't wait!

Next thing I knew, there were three days left. Maybe he's now sorry for what he did? Maybe he doesn't even know how much this next part hurt! As I said , three days left on the countdown and I decided to go on MSN. He's online, maybe he'll be over her today, I thought. All these exciting thought traveling through my head all at once and then I see he's talking to me. He said I need to follow my heart and my hearts saying no. There were three days left, I had waited, but he changed his mind. I guess that's what 12 year-old-boys do.

He said he couldn't forsee himself liking me. I know, I loved him but a lot of girls like him, he told me. I was just one of them. When he said that, I felt like I don't make a difference, I'm just "one of them."

He was planning this all along, he just didn't have the heart to tell me until then. If you're wondering, yes, I still love him, and I will always love him! When all "the other girls" give up, I'll still be here, with the same amount of care for him, if not stronger. I love him with all of my broken heart.


I am 12 years old.
This is a true story, not one thing made up.
I made several poems for him, but he still doesn't love me.


To all boys: Anything you say to girls: call them ugly or fat or those mean things or just even saying no; will affect them for a very long time, please don't do it!

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