My crazy, goofy, complicated life

by Katie
(US)

Always, there's been this guy. I like him a lot and, strangely enough, he likes me too. Only 2 people know, our friend Sko and my friend Serri. He calls me his girlfriend and I call him my boyfriend, but he is different then all the other guys I've dated. He cares, for one. He was the first one I told when my last boyfriend broke up with me. All the other guys see my face, my hair, my eyes because I'm apparently pretty. I can't name how many guys have liked me without ever talking to me.

**** isn't like that. He sees past the hair and eyes and face. He peers into my soul and sees everything about me. He loves me for me and he says that I'm the only one that sees him for him. I hope it lasts but I don't know all his feelings. I am his first girlfriend and the only girl he's ever loved. I've only loved 1 other guy, but dated many. It makes me feel special how I'm his only, but it makes him scared that I am going to run off with someone else. How do I tell him how I feel?