My inevitable
by Pamela
He was from Brooklyn, I was from the suburbs. Somewhere along the way, I believed all the bad things in the past that had happened to me were finally turning around. I believed that having a good heart was finally paying off. I finally felt complete. Our families loved each other and everything just fell into place. There were times he would bring up our future of marriage with children. The day I realized I was in love with him was the same day he walked away from me. At that moment I felt the world around me collapse. It's an indescribable pain. I am always logical, but I knew this was just a part of life. Still, I continue to find myself filling my mind with false hope. I dare not confide in my friends or family because I tell them stories leading them to believe we left on good term just in case we get back together, so they will accept him more readily. Truth is, I still cry on the inside every day and cry myself to sleep every night. I loved and failed. There. I said it. |