MY LONG TEENAGE STORY

by maria
(san juan capistrano)

There is this guy, he was the most popular guy at school. In the beginning of this year i was sitting on a bench at school with my best friend and her boyfriend. when i noticed he would look at me non-stop and in that moment i realized i had a crush on him and so as time passed he tried to change to my classes. But he couldn't because he had advanced classes so he would change them to be as close to me as possible. and i thought it was very cute and sweet, but then he told some of his friends about me and that was when the real nightmare began. I remember walking through the halls and everyone would stare and talk about me. in that moment i felt really uncomfortable. i though it was okay because sooner or later people would find out. he looked at me a lot. But his girl friends would talk about me and try to make me jealous and so i realized that the one who loves u doesn't hurt you.Then every time i would go to my locker he would go after me and it was cute because his locker is next to mine. The bad thing is that we never talked to each other.
one day i got tired of waiting and all those rumors so i told my friend to tell him but then i was like no i was just kidding and she still did it. I wasn't mad at her just a little nervous. then he asked all of my friends if i liked him and some of them said yes because they thought he had the right to know. then he would ask my friends about me and one time he told them he was gonna ask me out. i was very happy but insecure because i wasn't sure of my feelings. That day after school i left fast to my car and wondered if he was looking for me. the next day my friends told me he was looking for me like crazy but he never found me. i was really sad because i knew that was my only and last chance so we could be together. when one of his friends found out she asked him out. so now he had to choose between me and her. That day he told one of my friends he wasn't gonna ask me out again. Because he felt insecure and some people told him i didn't like him, that was his friend and he thought i didn't like him because i never smiled at him and i would always give him dirty looks, that day i was tired of so much drama, so i went on my best friends Myspace and told him that i loved him and that i was sure that he liked someone too and i told him that i wanted to let him know how i really felt, and i was tired of people saying shit about me. i told him i didn't like him i told him i loved him. when he answered back he told me he was sorry but that he wasn't sure of what he felt anymore. and he told me not to worry about it. which made me cry. then i told him it wasn't the first time it happened to me and that it was okay, but the last thing i said is i was the only girl that cared about you but its okay I'll get over you. then i signed out and he didn't answer back. i decided i wasn't gonna go after him and that i was gonna let him kiss my ass. now hes always asking my friends if i'm sad and i am i'm not gonna lie. but it hurts me that he never had the balls to ask me or say things in my face. i never smiled at him and 3 days ago he did he stared at me for like 6 seconds and smiled with illusions or like if he was daydreaming, i looked at him and turned back. he was like what the hell? and i could see it in his expression
... since then i been trying to avoid him and not to look at him in the eyes because its just so hard. see now hes going after me and he knows how i felt. today i still love him and its been a year . I'm just 13 years old. and i been through a lot of drama, today my friends tell me I'm not the same since this happened and that i should move on and leave him on my past. but it's not as easy as they think. i been trying and hopefully something good will come out of all this.

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