My love for my cousin

It's hard to write short story because ours is a long one that doesn't have an ending yet ... so here it goes: I've been in love with my cousin for 4 long years now. Since the day I met him, 4 years ago, I knew in my heart that I have loved him and that he loved me back. We have been together happily ... But then he had to return to his hometown oceans away and back to his old life. We couldn't keep the relationship because time won't allow it and our relatives too and so it had to end. Since then, I haven't been with anyone, and it was the same for him too. We couldn't get over each other but still, we couldn't be together. I hadn't had communication with him for a long time. He'll be back next year (2009) to visit us here and also for a vacation. I keep thinking what will it be like for us? Will our relationship finally end? Will we ever be able to have closure? It's difficult ... I couldn't be with another guy because I always think about him ... and I don't want to lose him yet. I've been holding on to what's left. Come 2009, I will know ... this waiting sucks ... I just hope i can wait longer and keep ignoring anyone who comes my way until such a time that we both can settle and put the missing pieces back and move on with our lives ... either together or in separate ways ...