I don't understand why people think a guy and a girl can't be just friends. Sometimes the accusations are what pushes people to do things they are accused of. If you are getting accused hell you may as well do it! I don't think i have any real sound advice, but what it seems like to me is that everything you said about him he is feeling about you and is running scared. He wants to get away because he knows if he doesn't he is going to get in way deeper than he already is and you have to remember he is a married man and you are a married woman. At the same time he doesn't want to completely cut those ties either. He just wants to keep you hanging on. So it is up to you whether you can withstand the hurt and pain to ride this storm out. It could wipe out everything you ever had with him or it could grow a new garden.