No love
by Kaylor
But I met this girl. She seemed different. She was a sophomore, and I was a freshman. I figured that I wouldn't ever get a chance with her, because she had a boyfriend and she was older. Well I had been hearing things about how her boyfriend had been cheating on her with other girls in different cities. But the girl was unaware of these things happening. I didn't want to say anything because I knew it wasn't my place to say it. But me and her met at the dance the day after I met her. The very first time we danced together, something happened. We looked into each others' eyes and nothing else felt there except for each other. The next day, they break up. I try to comfort her and tell her everything is going to be okay. The next day she told me that she didn't want me to be the rebound, so she wanted me to wait. I didn't kiss her again until about 2 weeks after that happened. But during in between that time we had been talking about going out. She said she liked me, but she still wanted some time. I was telling her that I wasn't going to hurt her in any way. She said she knew that, and she was never going to hurt me. So back to the second time I kissed her. After that we kind of got into a fight. I didn't understand why we could be so close but we couldn't date? We left each other alone for a day or two. But I couldn't take it anymore. I walked up to her and said "I don't want to lose you. If I have to I will wait forever to be with you. But just don't make me wait too long because I don't want to end up falling in love and never getting a chance with you because i wont give up." After that things seemed to be going really good. We had been getting serious for a couple weeks, but for some reason again she wanted to wait. We had been fighting again. She had been telling me that there wouldn't be any way right now that me and her could ever date. This time I couldn't help but I had to ask her a question. The question was, "Do you know how much in love I am with you?" The only thing she said was "Really?" I thought I had her. But the next day her cousin/best friend told me that she was still madly in love with her ex. I didn't know how to take it... everything felt as if I was being pulled apart slowly. Her ex doesn't want her back, but she was determined to get him back. But what about me? She said that we would never have a chance and that all she wanted to be was friends. I spent everyday telling her how I would be the right one for her and that I would never do anything to hurt her. And that I loved her and she deserves someone who wouldn't hurt her. I spilled everything out of my heart to get her to like me a fraction of what I loved her. A few days had passed since we last talked to each other after that. Well I talked to her again. This time I said, "You have no idea how much I hate myself right now. It's impossible to want you as anything else but mine. You are a tough one to crack, but just so you know I'm not done with you. I will keep on trying. But I wish you would think about what it would be like to be with me. Besides I can't give up right now, I just can't yet. You're too good for anyone to give up on, and I'm going to prove it." Do you want to know what the girl said to me after I told her I was never going to give up on her? She said sorry, my phone died. But like I said I told her she is too good for anyone to give up on. And to this day, I still haven't given up on her, I sit here waiting patiently for my one and only to come to me...and she is still in love with her ex, even after I told her he cheated on her. |