old and new love.

by megan

i thought we had what we waited for and we did, or we do. We had been friends for years, we had slowly and gradually fallen in love. Life with each other was good. that is aside from me leaving my own house, my parents on going ten year divorce and living with my aunt. He stood by me, he caused my smile. he is incredible. my love and my best friend. he waited, he held my hand, he helped me through. he was definitely the reason for all the tears when i realized id be moving states away with my grandparents. i had to go, leaving him to finish his senior year, and me to complete my junior year in a different state and a new school. oh, i couldn't stand it at first, i want nothing more than to b back with him. i was hurt and depressed, and un-willing to move on. we tried breaking up we were wit other people. it wasn't for us and we stayed together. he mailed me a ring, we planned to marry, no matter how crazy anyone says we are. his ring sits on my finger. still depressed though. with rumors of him having been with someone else, and feeling alone except for his phone calls at night, i was still depressed. new school, no friends. no one to be close to. except after time i made a friend, a MALE friend. and while i am a firm believer that guys and girls can just b friends, its not always the case or wed never form relationships. my northern boyfriend, knew of my southern friend. he and i stayed together and we still are, having never more than kissed we hold on to that simple thought of each other. but with each other so far away, and his sex during our break with another girl confirmed, its hard not to get close to a new guy. gradually getting closer and too close while i still maintained my bf, and he himself keeps his girlfriend, his girlfriend that just moved away. we let a kiss lead to far,a day turn to night and a look turn to love, and that love changed a depression in one young girls heart, it brought happiness. and now what do u do, when your new love is here and your once only love is there. you want to scream the truth and beg for what u want, but what do u do when your confused about what u want. how can it be I'm 17 and this decision, could change my life. do i break off an engagement, and move forward wit a love affair? how do you end a love affair your afraid to lose?