Outside i give a smile

by Hudson R. Woelk
(amityville, N.Y.)

outside, I give a smile
I've even learned to laugh
but it's killing me inside
and tearing me in half

conflicted by the thoughts,
the memories we share
I'll always feel them same,
even though you don't care

it pains me when I think,
that its been gone for so long
but I know I can't retrieve it
since it wasn't all along

I yearn for the sight,
for the taste, for the touch
of the distant past
is that far too much?

but now i know
it wont come true,
my dream of us,
of me and you

but I'll still fight
this long lost war
I'll keep on hoping
for something more

it will kill me,
inside and out
but I'll still try
despite my doubt

what hurts the most,
was not my err
but rather the thought
that you never cared