Pregnant

by Michelle
(trinidad)

I have been with my bf 7 yrs now. I am 21 and he's 25 . We've been through a lot. He has cheated on me in the past & the memories still haunt me.. I love him a lot but i'm a bit scared he hurts me again.

Last month he told me that he's ready to settle himself and start a family. He told me he wanted me to get pregnant. That night we had sex and he broke inside of me (i was not in my safe period).

I don't have a problem with him being my child's father but i'm afraid that he hurts me again. Every time we have silly little arguments i keep telling him if i get pregnant i would have an abortion and he keeps getting really upset with me.

I'm really afraid that if i get pregnant he hurts me again like in the past (because i was pregnant in the past and had an abortion & within that time he was cheating with a girl). Any advice would be appreciated. Am i wrong for holding on to the past experiences we have?