Savior

by Angela Shields

The sound of uncertainty

in your voice, makes

you another person

that left my life because of

my issues, my sickly thoughts.



I knew that I should have

kept my mouth shut,

you are the one person

that I would never want

to lose, but it ended up that way.



Why must I be so

repulsive, so appalling?

I am just being myself,

I can't help that I think

certain things, or dream

ungodly dreams, that's just

who I am.



I told you, repeatedly

that you were going to run away

from me, just like everyone else did.

You told me that you can handle

anything and everything,

so I took your word.



Now look at you, you can't get over

the fact that what I told you

is even human. And now, the one

and only person I thought

was going to stay and be with me,

has left me as if in the unbareable storm

with no guidance what so ever.



I thought you were different,

different from the others that today

still try to wipe away all the things I've

poisoned into their minds. But here

you turned out just like them.



I love you, and really trusted you

to stay with me, and help me through

my dark moments, save me from the

ghastly monster that has over-ruled me.

But you ran away, leaving me alone.



I guess that I was born to be alone,

to suffer the pain that I was born to have.

I guess no one will be my savior...