Scared of love

by Kassie

I've never let anyone get close to me.
Not my parents, my friends, or even my boyfriend.
I'm content with being alone, I'm good at being alone, hell I'm great at being alone.
But then I met you & my heart grew full.
I wanted to share with you anything, everything, and nothing has scared me like that before.
You were gentle, kind, honest & I knew instantly I'd never be good enough.
So I broke it off, hoping that this feeling would disappear, but no, to this day it still hasn't.
I've tried for months to keep thoughts of you out of my head, but yet when I think I'm over and done, I see your face and the feelings are back again.
Truth is, I was scared that if I opened my heart fully, you would finally realize I wasn't good enough for you & I'd never be able to survive that kind of hurt.
So here I am, writing this on some silly website because no matter how hard I try, I can never admit any of these words to you.
I'll always be forever in love with you.