She's my everything

by Josh Layne
(South Point, Ohio, United States)

Every day, my thoughts get darker as I slowly fall apart inside. And the happy part of me long ago died. The only thing keeping me from going completely insane is the one I truly love. She keeps my soul from dying and ascending to the mystical above. She's the only thing worth living for. And every day I need her, more and more. She knows nothing of how insane I've become. She has no clue of my mental and emotional slum. One day I will tell her and hope she still loves me. If not, all she'll know is that I'm a psychopathic little boy which I try so hard not to be. If I lose her, my life will be done. And the last ounce of my sanity will decrease to none. If I lose her, I'll torturously fall apart, no going back. And the blood in my veins will slowly fade to black. If God has any respect for me, He'll keep her in my life. If not, it'll end with the thrust of a knife. I love her with everything I am, inside and out. But her staying with my psychotic self is something that I will always doubt.