Should we work this out?

by Kelsey
(USA)

I dated my ex for about one year, and I was the one to break it off because we fought all of the time. My fault. He was really nice, sweet, smart, never did anything to hurt me...he still is a great guy. But I was always the one hurting him, I don’t trust men period.

He fell head over heels for me and he was always telling me how much he loved me, he even put my full name in a poem he wrote himself. But I just kept hurting him and hurting him. Then I began lying to him day after day because he took his friends' side of the story over mine.

(His friend told him I slept with him when I’m a virgin, still am) Then he started calling me whore and slut whenever we fought. And after we broke up, it was about a month I guess when I started to miss him badly.

I made myself into an ass by begging him to take me back. Texting, calling, stopping him whenever I saw him, I even drunk-called him once. Well anyway about 4 or 5 months went by and I remembered that his birthday was only a few days away and I texted him, asking if I could wish him a happy birthday, he said that was fine, so I asked if I could do it in person and he said "No, it still hurts to think about you."

It’s been 9 months since we last spoke and just yesterday I had two text messages from him saying "I really miss you and I’m sorry for everything" and "leaving you was the worst mistake I ever made."

During our relationship, we did say I love you to each other, he said it first...but now I feel as if I blew the only chance I’ll ever have at love. I broke his heart and mine in the process.

I’ve grown up a lot since we broke up, I know I’ve changed. And well I just want to know if he misses me, is there a chance we'll get back together? If we do, will we still fight?

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