Story of an unappreciated man
by James
So let's start at the beginning, she (who currently was dating someone) came onto me at a friend's grad party. She got my number from the friend and from that moment we would talk all the time. We kept us secret, so her boyfriend wouldn't yell at her, but we couldn't stop smiling if we even just passed each other. I was on the swim team at the time and she was our lifeguard, and I took every chance I could take to look at her. Every time she caught me doing so, she blushed and her face was as red as a rose. Her boyfriend then didn't treat her right (hurting her, breaking her heart, using her, etc), and he hadn't been doing so for the past year of their relationship. Everybody around her tried to tell her so, even her mother, but she wouldn't listen to anybody. We ended up mostly talking about her relationship with her current boyfriend. I would always cheer her up or talk her through some fight she was having. I could always make her happy, no matter how upset she had gotten. I was always there for her. So after a month to a month and a half, she finally broke up with him. But needed time alone. I gave her that time, I waited till she wanted to move on. She said we were like "Love Story" by Taylor Swift (I had to look up the song/lyrics), and we were. Once she wanted to move on, she asked her friend what she thought of me, and her friend only had good things to say. We started hanging out, just at my home watching a movie, just casual. She kissed me on the first night. Unknown to us, her ex was outside watching us. He called her after and told her. When we were doing this, her mother had a complete change of heart and hated me for no reason and loved her old boyfriend (even after knowing he did this), and still talked to her old boyfriend. She had to hide that we even talked. If I hadn't wanted to be with her so much, she would've just given in to her mother. I should've known then that she didn't love me, but I was a fool. Even after her ex did this, her parents were against me and for her ex. We would hangout on weekends, I wanted to hang out more, but she found excuses not to hang out on week days. I didn't think much of this. We kept coming to my home, doing the same thing. Apparently her ex did the same thing as he did too. There was even one time when we were making out and he was throwing snowballs at my windows. He even went as far as to find a picture of two people having sex and put my face on the guys face and her face on the girls face and put this on my car's windshield wiper. The police were contacted. They went to his house. He refused to cooperate. He seemed to stop after this. So we went on with out lives. Her mom gave her an ultimatum, me or her ex. She couldn't decide. I was stupid enough to stay with her after her doing this. If I didn't fight so hard, we wouldn't have made it any farther. We went on a first date. Her mom told her old boyfriend, what she was wearing, and apparently she was wearing something he bought her. He harassed her over it. Her mother didn't stop talking to him. We kept hanging out on weekends. Then she got mono for 3 weeks. I wanted to visit her, but remembering how her parents thought of me. I didn't go over in fear of getting her in trouble. I wanted to, and I told her I wanted to, but that wasn't enough. There were times before this that I snuck over for a few minutes and she'd always say she'd get in so much trouble if she got caught with me over. After she recovered, we went on another date. I asked her to prom in a sweet way. I convinced her to go to the bathroom at the end of the meal, which wasn't easy. I called the waiter over and asked him to bring out a cake with "Will you go to prom with me?" written on it. She comes back and the cake comes out. She's overwhelmed, she has a huge smile on her face. We were going to go to a movie after the dinner, but she wasn't feeling well so we just went to my house to relax. One week later, we get in our biggest fight. We fight over all the things we both know her old boyfriend did, but she changed her mind and thought he didn't. And as we're getting through it, she starts talking to him again. I see them talking, I asked her why she was talking to him. We fought over that too. She decides that she wants to be with her old boyfriend. The guy who hurt her all the time, the guy who used her all the time, the guy who broke her heart all the time. I was severely depressed for four weeks after. I didn't enjoy anything, I couldn't smile. I sent her a message 3.5 weeks after, and she said that I was "supposed to have moved on by then". This is the 6th week after and have finally stopped hurting. I gave her everything, she didn't even give me her respect. Now that I am over her, I have been unable to find any companionship, and that's all I really want right now. So instead of being depressed over her, I'm depressed over that. And it hurts, it hurts a lot. Click here to read or post comments. |