Summer Love Ends
by L. Adams
Well, this wasn't that kinda fling. It was summer and I fell for a guy who after a while started caring for me a lot. I could tell & so could everyone else we were working with. I opened my big mouth and asked where it was going and he was going off to college and I was a junior in high school, i was 15 turning 16 in a couple weeks and he was 18. So he said there was too much against us. We sort of took a break but then became close again. And then came the day I was dreading since the day I fell for him... the day I had to leave him. I knew next summer we would meet again and that day, I sat in his car for half an hour, crying my eyes out because I knew this would be the last time I would see his face for a whole year and he would in that time find someone and forget about me. So now months have gone by and I've seen him once, with his "friend" he claims he doesn't want to be with, but she came to his dorm to visit at 11:30 at night to watch movies?? But they're "just friends." It breaks me up inside to know that I can't be with him and make him like me and have it be the same way it was during the summer. I hate waking up every morning thinking about him and catch myself smiling. I want to cry and hide away, keep myself busy and forget about him like he has forgotten about me. Time is passing and feelings are fading. I guess it's true when people say, "People change and they get tired of the same person and forget." I lost him and I'm afraid of what the future will bring between us, what if the next time I see him, there is a girl skinnier and prettier than me, clinging to him like a magnet. Or what if they kiss and my heart falls to the pit of my stomach? I don't know when or how to put it back where it belongs. I'm sure this has happened to people before and I just don't know how to handle it, so help please! Click here to read or post comments. |