Teen love :'(
At, first it was....hate. Yes, we hated one another. I can honestly say that. I thought he was the most annoying, bragging, selfish, boy ever. Way out of my league at that. We didn't really get along. We would slap and punch one another, just like siblings do to one another. At the same time, I had met my first ever boyfriend. That ended terribly. But we are friends now. Anyway, my heart was hurting, honestly, and I had a hole to be filled. Not soon after, I started to look at him... differently. Just thinking about him make me laugh! I love those little freckles! And....well, we started to be more compatible. Those constant teasings were now playful and harmless. We would hug it out from time to time. And I really did enjoy it. I saw the part of him people didn't take the time to see. The person behind all that shaggy hair! He was sweet, caring, athletic, and he could make you feel so much better of you were upset, not to mention cute! And I was just lucky enough to meet him. All this was in school, which was near an end. The next year...High school. That's when everyone changes. So, it was now or never between us. His guy friends would constantly tease us both. And we would ignore & deny the truth. At one time, they went a little too far by writing my name on his stuff. But, that's boys for you. I thought after that, things would be awkward between us, Thank goodness, it wasn't. Time went on, and nothing much happened. The last day of school came. I was dreading the last day. One of my friends, was leaving, and would not be at high school. That was my excuse for nearly crying. Truthfully, my heart was breaking, but I was too blind to notice. I have not seen him since. It's not that bad, we have talked to each other since. And when we did, I loved every second of it. Whether he did or not, did not concern me. Since then he went on a vacation. And, yes, its one of those crushes where you think about him, every... waking... moment. I realize I don't think he likes me. Or me him. He would never date someone like me. He is one of those guys who could get a better girl than me. Honestly, I think he tries. I do love him, I can't deny it. But, there is nothing I can do about it... and that hurts the most. I just need to move on. We never even went out, and he has broken my heart. I should have known all along. I love you. But I need to move on, and fill this hole that had slowly, been tearing my heart in two. It's an empty feeling. Having all this love inside, and not having anyone to give it to. And baby, I have enough love to make the world go 'round. It's my time to move on, you still have your chance. I will always love you, you're a part of me, whether you feel the same or not. You are something special to me. But I can't wait for a miracle. I need to shake the dust off, and go shower someone else in love. You were just too blind to see. Goodbye darling. Time to find someone right for me. How to really get to know the person you are dating, so you don't get your heart broken again |