'The One'
The one that I thought was 'the one'. He used to always look at me with those bright shining eyes of his... It began in grade 7. At first I thought thought nothing of him... I just thought that he had a slut-of-a-girlfriend. I thought that he was just a classmate. That soon changed when we ended up going to a track meet together. Considering the fact that there wasn't anything to do there, well, we kinda hung out. We would go along side the rails and scream rhythmically at the on-going indoor track runners; "Never Say Never!". We would laugh so hard. Soon though, late was I to realize, that he didn't really care about me, unlike what I thought. Because we were participants on the indoor track team, we got free Bulldogs tickets(hockey tickets). I went with who-was-soon-to-become-my... 'crush'. We sat right beside each other... I wish I hadn't. We hung out the whole entire hockey game, enjoying every minute of it. During my time with him there though, I can't remember when it happened but, I fell for him, my heart beat nervously every minute I was around him. It was pure Heaven and utter Hell. After the third period was over, I asked my new crush, what he thought of of tonight. What he thought of me. It was my first time... My first moment that I truly understood with all emotions surrounding me. My heart's first crack at it. It hurt so much. All I wanted was to be near him... For us to be near each other all the time. I had wanted to go to the same high school as him. There's no use in that though. I cried that night, ending up crying myself to sleep. How could he easily, yet so truthfully shrug me off like that? I mean, I knew I loved him, there and then, I thought he was 'the one'. 'The one' to always be there by my side... 'the one' I knew and loved. I realized then, that fairy tales weren't real.. That wishes never come true. And that he wouldn't ever love me. I just can't get over how much I loved him. Love, I mean... I highly doubt that my heart will ever have a thunderstorm, so loud, so unique, so wonderful like it had had with him... |
