The Very End

by Ely
(Davao City Mindanao Phillipines)

My life is crumbling around me, and all I can do is watch the sand sift through my shaky fingers. Everything I touch is destroyed in a matter of days. I am a plague, cursing all those around me. I am scorned every waking minute of every blazing day. With a fake smile on my face, and tear stains in my heart, I make the best of each day. Less painful than the wicked truth. Life spiraling out of control . . . why won’t it stop? When will it end? The time is now. I must leave you. And never forget — I love you. No matter what.

turn on the shower
lock the door
fall upon the tile
and cry once more
grab a towel
damp the sounds
don't let a soul hear
that you're breaking down

tonight i'll sit outside
i'll stay until i'm numb
maybe when i'm frozen
i'll understand what i've become

there's a girl,
in my mirror crying tonight,
and there's nothing I can tell her,
to make her feel alright

I'll carve your name into this bullet so everyone will know
you were the last thing going through my mind

sometimes all you can do is smile
Move on with your day,
Hold back the tears and pretend you're okay

I'm gonna draw a picture, a picture with a twist, I'll draw it with a razor blade, I'll draw it on my wrist.

My soul flows sadly through these gashes in my wrists.

My life is like a black hole in which happiness is sucked into and then disappears forever.


Some say there is no life after death but I say there Is no life after birth.

If death is our only salvation what is the point of life.

Torn and shattered bished and battered, ripped bit by bit into the light then shoved into the shadows.

The speed, the rush
it's almost like flying
but lost in this feeling
is how people start dying
She lays in her bed
in a room painted white
she is in an endless slumber
all for the senseless feeling of flight
She will never awaken
at least that's what they say
because they all know
I died that day
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"Strip away vanity
Just as you consume me
Broken smile, starless sky
Save it all, Say goodbye."

"You wake to suffer through the day
Trade a dream for the pay
Well here's the fact, I hope it sticks
You're just alive out of habit."