the worst thing is when you love someone but they dont love you back.
by janellecourtnieee
himmm_* .
in the end of the summer, we had to go to some program for school. me and my friend got ready then headed off to school. we got separated into groups. only five people in my group. i didn't know anyone in my group. i started talking to them; and there was something about that one guy that left a smile on my face. his name was Brett. we exchanged numbers and he said he would call. well all i can tell you is i waited alone in my room staring at my phone. at about 11 he calls. FINALLY. we decided to got go to the movies the next day. as we talked for hours on the phone about going to the movies the next day i fell in love right there and then there was a rumor that he liked me, and he was going to ask me out. this other girl he knows asked him out. and him being so sweet he said yes. i hated her so much. she convinced him to hate me. i don't know what i did to her. one day i told him that i liked him and we got into a fight. a big fight. we didn't talk for seven days. i felt dead that week. its now February and I'm still in love with him. as i watch him date every other girl, but then turn up his nose to me. yeah i guess its better off. me and him being best friends. but you know what gets to me the most. when people say because I'm in seventh grade i cant be in love its just a "phase" well newsflash you might think its a phase but its not. its a feeling that doesn't go away. a mixture of feelings that have made me done a couple crazy things. I've gone emo, and anorexic. i know its wrong and I'm getting better. its a day by day thing. but i love how he doesn't get that he has my heart its his. so while I'm here typing this my hearts in his pocket like its always been there. since the first time i saw him. I'm in love with someone who doesn't love you. and it makes me feel like crap. like i would never be worth him. and that is what truly kills me. -janelle-courtniee_* . |
