The Wrong Way

by April
(NC)

The Wrong Way

They say that time heals everything,
and I have learned that the pain does ease
It has been 4 years now, I have made a life of my own, but the pain, sometimes it still brings me to my knees.
I have finally given up on you coming back.
I have a husband and two great kids,
You would think that I have my life back on track.
But if that's the case, then why are you still here,
In my mind, in every little thing that I do?
A new emotion has come over me, it is fear.
I have never been so scared over the life that I have chosen.
But it's like I never had a choice.
You cannot sit there and say you did not feel the same.
I can speak, scream, tell you over and over how I feel,
But you will never hear my screams or my voice.
I will not take back my choices or my mistakes,
But more than anything I will not take back our past.
It is something that I will have to live with everyday.
And I will cope because this is my path.
One day, you will awaken from your insanity
and know that I was yours.
But you chose the other way
like me,
the wrong way.