there is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved

by lonesome dove
(canada)

we met 5 years ago, he was my best friend and i truly love him still. about 3 weeks ago he said he can't have a commitment, he would still like to be friends only...no warning. i am 61 now, the first week i was in denial i guess, the second week i cried many times during the day and night. my work is affected, i am afraid to be alone. i do not know what i did wrong. how can you go from being with or talking with someone for that length of time and abruptly stop the relationship in a new york minute? now i feel foolish, wonder what i could have done to spent the rest of my life with the man i loved still. i was in an abusive marriage before for 28 years, after careful consideration i gave mr. right all of me, forsaking friends and family he stayed at my house he drove me to and from work he did so much in the way of renovations in my little house i bought, we went on trips, my kids think the world of him. now when people ask i don't know what to say so i say he has 14 things on his plate and one of them had to go. he says it isn't another woman, i really would like more of an answer but i am ashamed and scared.