There's this guy
by Venessa Xiong
I'm the one in the White Shirt
Now I am a Sophomore and he’s a Junior still attending the same high school. I see him more and thought that I would just like him for my freshman year, but I was wrong. I still like him. School just started for us in September of 2007. We have been talking more and playing around more, the time came that our school was hosting a dance known as Sadie Hawkins. When I first heard of it, I didn't know what it was, but then I got info on it and the 1st thing that came to mind was "This is my only chance to do something worthwhile with him". I was planning on asking him to the dance but then I heard this other girl asked him and my hopes went way down. So I decided not to go. A few days later, I found out that he had turned her down, then I took my opportunity in asking him. At 1st, I asked him how come he turned her down, he said he didn't want to go to the dance because he went to Homecoming and it sucked. I was walking with him to his bus when we finally got there, we said our good-byes and something I thought would never happen, happened. He turned around and said my name I turned around smiling and he asked me, "Then why don't you ask me?" I wasn't sure if that's what he said, but before I could ask him he got on the bus and we waved to each other. The very next day, I asked him what he had said and he really did ask me that. He was blabbering off that he was just playing around, but I didn't care, so I asked him to the dance. He didn't answer me, he was still blabbering and a few minutes later he finally noticed that I had asked him. He still didn't answer, but he asked me if I just asked him to go with me. Surely I said yes. The day after this had happened, I asked him if he had thought about it and he thought that I was just playing around as well. He answered me that very moment and he said "No". I was heartbroken. A few days later we were just talking and eventually it came close to time of the dance. The day right before the dance he asked me if I wanted to go with him and of course I said "YES" I also asked him "Isn't it too late already to buy the tickets?" and it was but then he said his sister is in the Student Council and he said that he could have her save us tickets. The day of the dance in the morning he told me that he couldn't go with me anymore because his brother is coming home and he needs to be home, so I was more heartbroken. We ended up not going and that very day they were selling more tickets, I think that was a sign. The days passed by and we weren’t as close, but he was sweet to me. The next week of school started and we saw each other in the morning like we usually do and he walked me to my locker and he was asking me if I was mad at him. I was kind of, but I said no. And the following week passed by and I found out why he couldn't go with me to the dance, it was because he didn't have any money. That was funny but I also understand why he lied to me. I wanted to call him and kind of yell at him, but I didn't because that would be really wrong. Oh well that was in the past. Many people found out that I liked him. My friends are his friends so they all were gossiping about us. My best friend told me that everyone had said that they thought we are cute together, and that we should date. My best friend asked me if I liked him. And I couldn't lie, so I told her the truth. She told them; later that same day she told me that they think he likes me too. Oh forgot to mention this, in November of 2007 we both, him and I, took driver's education class together. I enjoyed those moments of us being together. Oh and the week after the Sadie Hawkins Dance, there was this party that this other place was hosting and I called him at the last minute the very same day of that party and asked him if he wanted to go with me, and he really said yes. We went together, and he was so sweet. We got dropped off early at the party but they didn't start yet so everyone who arrived early has to wait outside in the cold. He was just wearing blue jeans a red thermal shirt and his sweater. I was wearing blue jeans white shirt and my business vest. He offered his sweater to me but I said no because I didn't want him to freeze but he took it off anyway and put it on me like in those fairytale movies where the guy would take off his blazer or sweater and put around the lady. I am seriously not kidding about this. Finally, they let us in and had us wait in the lobby. I asked him if he wanted his sweater back but he said no and he also said he wanted me to wear it. The party finally started and everyone had to pay $5 each at the door. He was taking out his wallet I told him I'll pay for it but he didn't let me so he paid for it. That made me fall more in love with him. Oh I forgot while we were waiting in the lobby a lot of people asked us if we were dating. And of course we weren't but I wished we were. He didn't answer them so I did and wasn't sure what to say. I just told the truth and they said that it look like we are dating. I looked over at him and he was staring at me for a while he was smiling at me. I smiled back we were just sitting there after we got in. We were talking and finally my friends came and they got the party started the lights were still on so no one wanted to dance but my friends are really wild. He asked me if I wanted to join them but I didn't want to leave him there by himself. That’s what I said to him and he just told me to go. I told him he'd better come dance too, he said and promised me that he'll come dance when they turn off the lights. I went and while I was dancing with my friends I kept my eyes on him too. He was looking at me dancing. When he realized that I caught him staring he blushed and looked away. The lights finally went off and he didn't come yet, so I was going to go get him but my best friend went to go get him. He came and we were dancing. One of my other friends was dancing, well I should say freaking on her crush, of course they had me do that to him. My crush. I did and he was dancing back so I guess he enjoyed it. I know I did. I wish we could go back to that time. I should have danced more with him. Back to the story, one of my other friends just arrived at the party so I went to go get her and her boyfriend. When I returned to the dance floor I was facing him but then my wild friends were between us. They were all freaking on each other. Beautiful Girls by Sean Kingston was on. He reached over and grabbed my hand, pulled me over to dance with him. He whispered in my ears "Slow dance with me" I was madly, deeply in love with him. So we slowed danced to that song. It was the hip pop version, but we danced anyway. I was surprised when he did the splits. That night I was planning on telling him I liked him but I got put down. My best friend's sister went asked him if he liked me and he told her that he only likes me as a friend. I didn't tell him that I knew. We were dancing and it was about 10:30 pm, so we had to leave. Our driver was there to pick us up. We were walking out he asked me if I had fun, and I said I did. I asked him too, he said that he did. We got in the car. I introduced him to my sister and her husband. He was embarrassed because I was taking him home, when he was supposed to be taking me home. That following Monday, I asked him about what my best friend's sister told me, but he lied to me. I wanted to ask him if he ever thought of US being more than just friends, I couldn't bring myself to do it. We got to his bus we said our good-byes and right when he was getting on the bus, I said his name and told him that I liked him. He didn't say anything. So I thought that he didn't hear me. The next day I was going to tell him, but he wasn’t at school. I had to wait until the next Monday. It was Thanksgiving break after that day I told him I like him. On my Myspace, he said: "Hey about what you asked me last week Monday, I think that we're just friends and no more then that. Well I'll see at school then." Those are the exact words that he noted me with. I was broken ever since I read his note. He flirts with me a lot he’s giving me MIXED SIGNALS. I feel like he does like me but he's not just telling me because he's too shy. In a way I feel like he's telling me the truth, but he's still flirting with me. I was hoping for us to be going out before Christmas and the New Year. I was planning on getting him a Christmas Gift. I'm stuck in the middle. My sister says I should give up on him. I'm trying to not like him like a boyfriend but I can't help it. There’s just something about him that makes me fall for him. When I am sure that I don’t like him as much and I see him again, my ability of not liking him as much fails and I start to like him more. I just can't ignore him because he's going to think wrong. I don't want to lose our friendship. The past few weeks, I feel like he's been avoiding me. I want to ask him if he's trying to, but I think that would ruin our friendship. It’s really hard for me right now. I see him everyday at school, I got him on Myspace. I constantly think about him and I can't stop it. Click here to read or post comments. |
