today
i say that every things ok i try to smile and fade away all the tears i feel today. as you turn and walk away I tell myself that im ok. my heart is crying my head is screaming my hands are shaking but, i make it through another day. Waking up i feel the same and just say i will make it through another day. i see them laugh and holding hands oh how i wish i could stand to be around the joy and glee but its no longer inside of me. i tell myself ive moved on i tell myself that im strong and that i can hold on. as i lay me down to sleep i pray the lord my soul to keep so it can feel the pain i made it through another day. todays the day i say i will make it through this day not tears or sorrow will i feel then all at once it disperses i almost cried today i did not make it through this day. in the morning i wake to the sounds of which i hate the sounds of love in the air i wonder even if i dare, i roll out of bed today thats all i remember from that day. today i played my part again i was there for my friend she cried on my shoulder today anything to make her feel ok. i play so strong to try and understand how sometime life is grand if only someone could take my hand. the thought of them touching me leaves me in pain u see, to never to be able to trust a man to never let u hold my hand i cannot let u see all there is inside of me because if i take down the walls inside of me i might just crumble and fall and there will be nothing left of me so i tell u that im fine and hold back the tears inside today was a close call you see i made it by just to be. today u woke me up to make sure i was ok i was crying again today for only while i sleep do i let the tears seep from my eyes i wonder why u look at me. here in my room while i sleep i think of the most important things the things i think before i wake i pray to lord to take take the pain from my eyes let me not break down and cry for i am strong today so i can make it through just one more day |