Torn Between Two Guys

by Julie

I met the boy of my dreams in grade ten. It was an instant connection. He made me laugh and always cheered me up. I was only myself around him and I was a better person. I fell head over heels in love with him. He loved me too.

I had a boyfriend at the time but I just couldn't seem to leave him. Let's just say he was very controlling and intimidating.

The boy in grade ten wanted me to leave him and just run away together. Forever together.

Eventually, that summer I broke up with my boyfriend and I called the boy of my dreams right away. He didn't seem interested. I hung out with him that summer a bit, but only as friends. He seemed to be falling out of love.

We talked about it and right then he didn't want something serious and told me to move on. I was crushed but I tried to move on. I've dated 5 guys, but nothing can take my mind off him. For a while, he believed that I was over him but now I don't think so.

I am currently dating a great boyfriend. Brings me flowers, tells me I'm beautiful, we go on dates, laugh, and he's perfect. Too perfect. I miss dancing in the rain, fighting just to make up and I miss feeling like I'm sitting on top of the world.

My boyfriend and I were at a party, and he walked in...my eyes were drawn to him. He was the focus of my night. He talked to me and we got along really good...we talked on the phone a little while ago. It has been 16 months of liking this boy.

Do I break up with my boyfriend who is leaving for college soon and pour my heart out to the love of my life? Do I wait till the summer is over? I know I can't move on..he's the one.

We're both country kids full of excitement. My boyfriend is nothing country and I feel like it's sometimes boring. Whenever I see this boy, my knees feel weak, my hands shake and I stutter. The thought of spending forever with him, emphasizes the meaning of living a beautiful life.

Do I give up and spend my time with my boyfriend who makes me feel great? I'll always feel a hole in my heart, but it's better than being completely broken and depressed, right? Do I break it off and fight for something real? I need some advice!