Two Faced Lover

Two Faced Lover

My best friend, who has always stabbed me in the back, yet somehow I'm always nice to her after every time, has a boyfriend and we have been sneaking around behind her back and we love it. No one knows. It's amazing but it just hurts me so badly to know that I cant ever have him, but we want each other so badly. I'm 15 and he's 16 and his girlfriend (my best friend) is only 14.

She doesn't hug him or kiss him or anything at all. She has him on a kiss limit. It's like she's such a prude and I'm not saying I'm a slut for sleeping with him, but still this sneaking around thing is getting to me. I can't take it anymore at all, but i love it at the same time.

He's so kind and nice and I'll let him go out with his friends when she won't. He's a big redneck. We live in Sullivan County, New York and we love it that his girlfriend (my best friend) thinks that he's the one when she treats him so nasty!

They broke up a while ago and that's when we first started sneaking around. On the night they broke up, he got a DWI because he went to go see her and she said I hate you and walked away, so he got with his friends, started drinking and attempted to drive home. My best friend and him ended up getting back together after a week.

Meanwhile he and I had already started sneaking around and we didn't want to stop. I wasn't happy with him but I knew it would only get worse if I stopped talking to him. He's always been my best friend. Only a few days ago, he was arrested because his mom called the cops on him for punching 4 holes in the walls at his house but I'm thankful that's all he got because he was so upset that he could have killed his mom.

It's so hard and I'm trying not to put my feelings in this relationship. I mean I love the fact that no one knows and I love standing with the 2 of them in the hallway in the morning. It gets me excited to know she doesn't have any clue.

We've slept together and my dad doesn't know and my stepmom is taking me to the gynecologist's office to make sure im a virgin. Can they even do that? Help, advice, please :)

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