Unfixable

by Emo Isaac

"Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional"

I feel so lonely and unloved.
I feel like I can't be loved.
Am I really a horrible person?
I've asked myself that for along time
Until I realized there's no such thing as love for me.
It's a heart-dropping feeling that hurts a lot.
It hurts when its fake.
I feel things and then they crush me and shatter my heart.
Too many times, I've been broken.
So many things have fixed me, but then ripped me up again.
So now I will never be fixed again.
I won't let myself be fixed, then broken again.
I'll just stay shattered.
Just broken,
Just crushed,
Just feeling unloved.
Just dead inside,
Unfixable.