Utterly and Hopelessly Confused
by Alex F.
I met a fellow 20-year old woman in July two years ago at a youth leadership program that I was chaperoning and she happened to be a guest speaker who came to speak to our group and stayed with us for two weeks while we were in DC. Well one thing led to another and we ended up talking to each other and if you were someone else looking in from the outside you could tell something was happening there even though we never got physical on the trip. I could tell from the beginning this could be the beginning of something wonderful and I was sad to see her fly home to Wisconsin when we left DC. After a few weeks of being home in Ohio, I found her on Facebook and we re-connected and pretty soon we were talking on the phone every night and slowly, but surely I started to develop strong feelings for her as we talked about what made each other tick. Our hopes, our dreams, our fears, our past experiences, everything. Well come February she tells me she's going to be in Akron for the day and I took off from work that day and drove through a blizzard to come see her just for 7 or 8 hours. But in those 7 or 8 hours we ended up talking a lot and it turns out she was feeling the same way as I was so being the hopeless romantic, I worked out the cutest way I could think of to ask someone to be my girlfriend. I went outside while it had stopped snowing and carved in the snow "Will you be my girlfriend?" by hand so that way when I went back up to her room and said I have to show you something from the window she looked down and saw it and a smile that could have lit up the world was etched on her face and she ecstatically said yes. We continued our nightly phone conversations and kept hinting to each other that we may be feeling more than just strong feelings for each other, neither of us outright said I love you, but we both knew that was what the other was feeling. I myself feel like when you say I love you for the first time to someone it should always be a face to face special and private moment. Due to both of our busy schedules and college, I either had time to come up to see her but she was busy or vice versa. So it wasn't until April that we finally got to see each other again and she came to stay with me for three days. A couple days before she came I sat down on the couch in the living room of my apartment and put a camcorder on a tristand and spilled my heart out and all of my emotions and everything I loved about her on tape, so that way I could surprise her with it and tell her how much I love her face to face when we finished watching it together. That night we made love for the first time and it was the most wonderful night of my life. A few months passed after that and it's July again. I accepted a new job offer down in Charlotte, North Carolina and talked to her about possibly meeting her parents in the near future because we had talked about living together and I wanted them to meet me because I had every intention of asking them for their blessing to marry her. Well it turns out that her parents didn't like the fact that we hid our relationship from them because we were afraid that once they found out it was a long distance relationship they would force us to end it. Well turns out once we sat down and talked to them about our relationship and I told them how I felt about their daughter and how I wanted to marry her they decided to force us to break up anyways by threatening to cut her off money wise as they were paying for her to go to school. I didn't feel like telling her to pick me over school would be such a wise decision in the long run as I know not that day but someday she may resent me for it, so I told her that even though it would break our hearts we would have to do it for the time being until we're both out of school and can be together again.
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