What he really wanted

When he first walked into the room my heart skipped a beat. It felt like a thunderstorm inside my heart. I had never felt like that before. All I could do was just look into his beautiful eyes and think of what he might think about me. I mean, I knew he probably would think of me as just a classmate, or a girl he had never really talked to before, but, I didn't really care, suddenly all I wanted to do was find out as to how he felt about me. I knew though, that I had to at least become friends with him first.


It was kinda stupid, or, funny actually, how I would act like he was a jerk, and tell my friends he deserved to have his heart crushed, but afterward I would always silently apologize to him, even though he wasn't there. Finally though, after a couple days of silent apologies, I invited him to a hockey game. Actually, I more so, just gave him the 2 tickets that I got free from one of my friends. I remember, it was a long awkward moment, but finally, he said, "sure."


Before the game, I was all worried. "What if he doesn't show?" or "What happens if he's right there but he just ignores me?". I at last couldn't stand it. I had to find out if he had used the tickets. So, as I walked to my seat, the first thing I noticed was him. His seat was one over next to mine. I felt so happy, like as if, finally, I could be with him without giving stupid excuses to hang round him. Sadly though, stupid couple sat in my seat, they looked as if they didn't want to be bothered so I left them to sit there. I just took the seat right underneath his.


During the first intermission, he called me over, soon we started to talk, I guess he was bored of our endless conversation, so, he asked if he could borrow my iPod touch. Since he was my crush, I didn't really mind, I was just happy to be there with him, so I handed it to him. After the first intermission he gave it back, however, the second intermission he asked if he could use it again- I let him. Soon, it reached the third period, and I started to get hungry. I asked him if he wanted to grab a bite to eat upstairs. He told me he wanted to get some hockey cards upstairs as well, and so we went.


I had a great time. Because of the fact that I was super hungry, my crush and I started looking for a food shack, like Pizza Pizza for instance. So we basically spent the entire third period together. However, even though I thought there was a 'special connection' between us, on Monday when I tried to talk to him about the game on Saturday, he just brushed it off, as if it never happened. I didn't give up, I kept trying to talk to him but, like always, he just brushed me off, even when it wasn't about the game.


Later, during class, he asked me if he could use my iPod; I'm not a push-over or anything, but, he WAS my crush, and I just couldn't say no to him. This ended up becoming a bad habit. I lent him my iPod, day after day, I soon rarely saw it. I soon began to get suspicious. I LOVED hanging out with him so much (I didn't trust him, just in case he decided to make a run for it, and steal it) however, I knew something wasn't how I felt it was.


Finally, after getting the courage to, I asked my crush what was going on. I asked him if he even actually liked me, or if he was just using me to get my iPod. I cried for so long that night at what his answer was. He told me he just wanted my iPod, and that he didn't mean to hurt me.(break my heart rather).