What I've Become
by Amanda Barbour
(Burlington,NC)
"a lost soul wandering through the flowers all alone..."
A monster is forming inside of me
I'm not sure if it's deadly
or a saint
these faces are turning away
from the horrid sight they see
everyone suddenly vanishes
I'm all alone
what I've become
is a hideous beast
that everyone hides from
everytime I look in the mirror,
I cringe with disgust
I gasp with fright
tears form in my eyes
they fall upon the floor
my heart battered
a thousand times
what I've become
is a coward
who runs from her problems
who wants to be forgotten
no one sees my tormented face
screaming out in despair
I am scared
of what I see
of who I am
of what I've become
this demon
invades my thoughts
what I've become...
is a nightmare