When to Say I Love You
When to Say I Love You
I've been dating my boyfriend for four months. In that time, we have stayed up all night talking, we have met each other's parents numerous times, we have gone for long drives, we have fallen asleep together (not much more than sleep, lol) and we have shared our emotions, but one thing we have never done is told each other we love each other.
Everyone says the way he looks at me "makes their hearts melt." That when I'm around he is so much sweeter, and that he can't stop looking at me but we still haven't gotten to the actual love thing...is that good?
I want him to mean it when he says it but am I wasting time. I definitely don't regret this cause I'm on the verge of love (love to me is a really strong word that is definitely overused).
He is so great, makes me happy, makes me laugh, playfully teases me, always has a good sense of humor, but knows the exact times when I need him to be serious and look at me without saying anything.
Since we started dating, my best friend went nuts. She called me really terrible names, broadcasted all my secrets to her class and even told my boyfriend embarrassing things that aren't true (she has been doing this for three and a half months straight) and the day that she pushed it over the edge and decided to tell everyone in her class and my class about some terrible stuff about me, it was hell.
I didn't learn about what she did till I got home. I was sitting in my room doing homework when my boyfriend called me and told me everything she said and I could not keep it together.
I was crying so hard that all he could do was listen to me and tell me not to let her keep treating me like this. He stayed up with me through like hours of crying and hating her and not wanting to go to school because of what people must think.
He repeatedly told me he felt so bad and that I should go to school. He said he would be with me the whole day and if anyone had the balls to bug me, he would hurt them.
The next day, I went to school and my best friend could always tell when something was wrong with me so of course she was enjoying this, but my eyes were so red and glossy from crying all night and my boyfriend couldn't look at me. He hugged me, kissed my cheek but couldn't face my pain dead on.
Later that day my boyfriend's brother came up to me and told me that last night while crying on the phone to him he was so pissed off and when he heard me he almost started to cry with me because of all his anger. I didn't believe this because my boyfriend is a little more the bad-boy type who only shows his deep emotions when he is with me.
At lunch, my friend walked by like she did nothing wrong. He came up to me and took me for a walk around town where all he could do was confess how much he is hurt and can't ever see me like that again. This was the day where I came so close to telling him I love him.
"Love is giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting them not to." There is a thin line between love and hate. Just pray you stay on the right side of that line. How to find out for sure if someone is right for you