Why am i not beautiful? Im unloveable...

by Macy
(mansfield tx)

When my uncle got divorced from my aunt,he wanted to get his mind off things, so he got on Facebook. There was this girl on there that he has known all his life, so he messaged her. They got together and she is the sweetest person in the whole world. (If I spell things wrong, keep in mind that im 13.)

Anyway she has 3 kids. Her youngest is 15 about to be 16. My dad told us that we were going over to their house, so I got all nervous. Of course when we got over there I didn't say anything to him because i was scared. He's rich, cute, buff, 6'2 and just perfect. Well I'm not, I'm not that heavy, just I feel like it, and I feel unloveable.

I feel as if he's too good for me. I wouldn't know that because I'm scared to talk to him. But all my life I have been made fun of because I'm "ugly" or "stupid" or "fat".

It's always something, so I guess I just learned to believe it. I don't think he knows that I like him. But I like him so much and I just wish for once I had a chance with one of the popular guys...