Will you remember me?

by Sonia
(UK)

I've had a huge crush in this boy for 6 months now. We've known each other for nine years. And we've never spoken a word to each other. Not face to face anyway. He's four years older than me but I have always seen him as a friend of my age.N ow I live very far away from him. After 3 years of separation, I contacted him and he said he didn't remember me.

I was disappointed, realizing indeed I'm nothing to him as we never did anything memorable in those three years of grace time. And now...he's the most handsome boy in the room. All girls want him. To my surprise he doesn't notice or care. Even after realizing who I was, he never played or led me on. He's a nice boy.I sometimes wonder the possibliities. But I know if I were to speak my heart, it will never happen. I'm scared even in my dreams. I'm scared of rejection. I wish I was something to him.

Anything at all but some random girl from the past that he struggles or can't even be bothered to pin-point a name on. One thing for sure, my worst regret in my life would be being nothing to him. Because what are the chances of meeting someone from the past twice? Surely because the story is still unfinished.