Wishing on 11:11 for Cupcake
by Eileen T.
The day after the night he asked me back out.
She was just messing around, but little did she know that in just a few months, that's exactly what I would be saying. Brian asked me out just a month or two after that. We talked on the phone every night no matter what. I would get out of dance around 11, and he would still call me. I remember one night my sister answered the phone, and she was talking to him. One thing she said was, "Hey Cupcake. What's sprinkling?" Cupcake became Brian's nickname, and every time I talked about him, that's what I said. We were on and off for about two years. I remember after the first time we went out, he asked another girl out just about a week after we broke up. They went out for 8 months. I was just totally ignoring it for a few months until at our talent show, Brian played a drum solo. I wanted to cry, I ran out of the cafeteria and into my closest friends arms. She had to take me outside so I could just cry. I cried for the next 20 minutes. After that I kinda felt a little more free. I felt more alive than I had in months. I thought I was okay. I lied to myself. The year went by as Brian and his new girl went out and stuff. Then in July or August they broke up. I took Brian out for his birthday with some close friends. Then that October he asked me back out. I broke up with him in January this year of 2008. I pretended not to like him for MONTHS, until I started this new school. It hit my hard, I was so depressed. I was calling my friends from my old school including Brian everyday. I realized that breaking up with Brian was the biggest mistake I have ever made in my life. I loved him. I was talking to him on the phone one night after a really long time. We were on the phone for 7 hours. Just talking about memories, and future. We were gonna go to Corpus Cristi for a concert that Saturday. Then he told about this girl he really, really liked. I was crushed. We were best friends and told each other everything. Every since then, I realized I've loved him all this time. He was my first boyfriend, my first best friend, and now my only ex boyfriend. I was texting him last night and I got a text from him saying, "Don't take this the wrong way, but I still like you. LOL." I replied asking how was that bad. And he texted back saying he meant to send that to the girl he told me about. I started to cry. Today, I should be in school but I'm sick because of a damaged heart. Love is the number one thing everyone wants and hates. This leaves me wishing one 11:11, those stars in the sky and praying to God. Worst part of all, even after he crushed me, I still love him. Get back your lost love |
